self hating and triggered

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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self hating and triggered

Post by bonita_05 » Wed Mar 09, 2005 12:41 am

I'm just feeling so down right now. I have absolutely no reason to be feeling this way though. I have no idea why i feel this way. I don't even really wanna si. i'm just feeling really dissociated and numb. I wish there was some way to bring myself back to reality. I'm so fucked up. I'm a piece of shit. I push all the people away that love me and that try to get close to me. I hate myself. What kind of person tells their best friend to go back where they came from??? I'm such a fuckup. i don't deserve to have friends or people that care about me. I want to deal with these stupid feelings but i don't even know why i'm feeling this way. it's pissing me off. *growls*

any suggestions??

hugs are welcome and would b appreciated :(

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*HUGS*

Post by joliebird » Wed Mar 09, 2005 1:24 am

I feel dissociated and numb most of the time, so I know how you feel.

I can't really offer any advice, because I've just learned to live with it. It sucks, I know, but....*sigh*

*HUGS* I'm here if you need me

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Post by Ashe » Thu Mar 10, 2005 4:28 am

Big hugs to you - can I have one back? I think I need one too!

I understand how you feel on the disassociated and numb stance - I just stumbled into it about an hour ago and it's fading now. I screwed up too... but that's beside the point. I'll get better and so will you. I try to listen to music to bring myself out of it - or if there's anyone at all you can call right now who can make you laugh (friend or family) that's a huge help, if you're artsy try drawing something. Those are the things I have to try, and if they don't work keep trying something. That's what I'm doing right now :)

I know you feel like an awful person, but you're not. You're just a little broken and trying to manage your repairs. Don't be afraid to ask for some help.

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